pretty in pink.

I really love this picture. It turned out blurry but I feel like that gives it more character, haha. Yea, I know I'm a bit of a weirdo like that-my belief in art is an excuse for everything gone wrong. lol.


Anyway, it was taken at cherry blossoms in DC. I was there with the fam bam. Funny, I went last year too, but in retrospect I was soo new to the area and it was such a "not quite sure if this is where I'll end up" time for me. I guess I ended up here after all. I'm glad, although I'm not quite sure where I'll be next year.


Some people look down on change and move. I think it's great. I'm young and I should have nothing holding me or tieing me down to one area. Yes, of course I'll miss the familia, but c'est la vie! I once was talking to an old friend about my worries towards not knowing where life will take me next, after reassuring me her case was similar she said, "anyway, life's more adventurous that way"!


I agree. :)


So, what’s my dilemma you ask? Well, maybe you don't give a crap! lol. Either way, here it goes..I'm done with my Americorps position this fall. Afterwards, I have to either find a job, go back to school (well, work towards), or volunteer abroad. I'd love to travel and go abroad, do a peace corps type-thing. Everyone around me, has their ideas about what I should be doing with myself next. My mom of course, feels I need to go to grad school and get it over with. I don't feel ready and I still have a ga-dillion (we on the same page now, I hope!) schools and programs that interest me. No clear direction, I feel. My DC friends desperately in need of a roomie next fall-all conveniently think I should stay here in DC and work. My intellect "uncles and aunts", as in anyone older than 40 and is Sudanese that feels they can speak on my behalf (We on the "it takes a village to raise a child.." theory) think I should, "go to Sudan, wallahi it's different now. You can volunteer with the UN, Care there..” So, back to my fear. So, i don't exactly know...making decisions is not part of my vocabulary. I am a Pisces after all. lol.

No worries though, it always works itself out. Worse comes to worse, I'll go back to the Wisco and have good home cooked meals. lol. Seriously though, the best bet is to apply to all and have the decision made for me. Right?

Anyway, back to cherry blossoms. That was a year ago and being there earlier today made me realize in that year, I came a long way and I'm actually proud of myself. I definitely feel settled into the DC life and know my way around, even the metro (well, somewhat!). I do have my "F this I'm ready to peace out" days, but I get over it. I do still insist on keeping my Wisconsin driver's license and car's plate is still from "the dairyland". lol. What can I say I’m still a Midwestern at heart! :)